ob-bound for the nth time

i just came from my ob last saturday. the good news is, my egg is supposed to ovulate already last sunday. we can already start doing the deed starting that day. but! i have to go visit her again on tuesday coz she'll check if the sperms are actually reaching the egg. i have to be at her clinic in the morning.

i just feel a bit stressed over these procedures. the fact that we want a baby already and are trying to make one is already pressure in itself. add another pressure by giving you a time frame as to when you have to do it and i have to rush for a visit just so to make sure that everything is in the right place.

i have full respect to the women out there who probably have visited their ob countless of times already. their ordeal at visiting the ob is probably greater than mine but they just kept on going hoping that one day they'll be able to conceive as well.

thinking about it, i find renewed strength that i must do this regardless of the mixed-up schedules and the pressures i feel. we want to have another baby and we know it will come in due time. we just want a little push in the time frame and i know that entails ob visits whether the schedule permits it or not. so now, all i can do is hope and pray that everything falls in place and that we can have another baby soon.

until then, am off to the ob tomorrow... again...