weight issues!

i've been feeling a bit low lately due to my weight issues. hello din naman kasi ako ano! reklamo ako ng reklamo and yet, hindi pa rin ako bumabalik sa gym until now.

well, siguro feeling a bit insecured ako coz si hubby has been losing weight steadily. hindi naman siya major payat but at least he's losing weight. he now regularly goes to the gym and plays badminton once a week. deductions kasi sa salary nila ang gym membership so forced siya to go kasi sayang naman daw. hay! mabuti pa siya, may motivation to go kahit paano.

ako, eto, slowly and steadily gaining weight instead of losing it! and i hate it! nakakainis! kasi naman, either work gets in the way or i get so excited to go home coz i'm going to scrapbook.

excuses, excuses! lagi na lang excuses! hay! i'm rambling about this issue.

add to this frustration the fact na, pagpunta ko ng mall to buy clothes, walang magkasya sa akin!!! either sobrang laki, or di naman kasya. nasa in-between yung size ko na wala tuloy kasya sa regular clothes and yet super laki pa rin naman sa mga super big sizes. add pa dun na hindi kagandahan ang mga styles na nadoon.

hay... when will this weight dilemma end?... isang batok nga dyan please para lang matauhan na ako at magising na na dapat na talaga akong magpapayat!... yung totoong pag-payat ha!... hay ulit...